Getting a leg up

I am dictating this as I am in my car currently and I do not anticipate having ample time before my work shift begins to get in the amount of writing <comma> to lay my thoughts down on paper <comma> as I would like. I'm trying as best I can to speak in the same way that I would if I was writing but I'm finding it very difficult to find that same flow of thought <comma> the same ease of stringing words together one after the other as I would if I were writing.

Now I am experimenting with speaking more slowly as though I were writing. This seems to be one of the main differences between the spoken word and the written <comma> that being the speed at which the words come out.

I have never been an eloquent speaker. I stumble over my words.  I stutter. I have word-finding difficulties. These are problems I do not have when I am writing. Of course in writing you can edit and a fair amount of editing does occur. Still there is a flow, a meditative quality to writing. This is not something I experience when I speak. It is as though the words <comma> the concept that I want to convey is present inside of me like a cloud with the words floating randomly inside like gas molecules inside a container. I have difficulty picking the best words and in the best order.  This is less difficult when I am writing.

My experiment has turned up interesting results. The words are coming more easily. I feel less need to go back and remove periods and add conjunctions. The sentences are forming more easily <comma> in a more pleasing manner. Perhaps this is something I can implement in my daily life <comma> at work <comma> in situations where conveying ideas <comma> thoughts and concepts are important. However listeners might think it odd <comma> the way I am speaking. It is robotic <comma> the slow thoughtful speech. I find it odd listening to myself. Because I have been speaking this SA, it is not the essay I thought it was going to be when I sat down to speak it. I am not certain that I had much to gain from trying to speak my thoughts. As I sit here in the parking lot of the hospital finishing these thoughts I realize that it is taking time away from the writing.